I have just completed Michael Brown’s ‘The Presence Process – A Journey into Present Moment Awareness’ It wasn’t all plain-sailing – my resistance manifested in many ways; forgetfulness, not bothering, feeling uncomfortable and creating all manner of plausible excuses why I can’t face something that’s clearly a block for me! According to Brown, ‘it’s the mind struggling to give up it’s God-like control and grip on my experience of life’. I know the games I play are the same ones I played when I was a child; not wanting to do my home-work, avoiding being found-out, playing up to get attention. Nothing’s new, it’s all a repeating pattern, ‘driven by unintegrated emotional charge’. I now realise that decades have past, and opportunities have been squandered as I allowed myself to be distracted by the symphony of discomfort and pain. The time was right for me to get some clarity, focus my energy and accelerate the process of integrating my past and the ancient feelings from childhood into my adult experience of life. The proof is in the eating. Read, follow the simple instructions and the rest is down to you. Only you can feel your unintegrated charge. Only you can face your fear, anger and grief. No one else, not even Michael Brown can do it for you.
We’ve all had fearful experiences as a child and as an adult, and we mostly react by mentally escaping into the illusionary corridors of time. In this mentally manufactured dream world we pretend everything is all right or will be all right some time in the future. Through fear, we trade being present for the mental armoury of pretence.
Through embracing physical presence we change our approach from fearfully hiding in a mental dream world to recognising ALL experience as an opportunity for growth.
Embrace today, fellow warriors of love; be present and grow!
The quality of my experience is determined by the quality of my emotional condition.
My emotional condition is determined by my willingness to fully face my imprinted childhood emotional charge without turning away and to fully digest it with gusto!
Anxiety, irritability, fear, anger are all echoes of a suppressed childhood emotion that’s never been allowed to surface. We’d rather sedate or control such feelings with meds, alcohol, drugs, TV or worry.
There is another option.
By being aware in the present moment through meditation and other portals, we are able to sense the causal feelings behind our discomfort.
Perceiving these feelings without condition, releases the movement of energy (trapped in the inner-child) and allows it to flow freely and harmoniously again.
Inspired by the teachings of Michael Brown’s ‘Presence Process’