Grievances are not real – merely phantoms; wisps of delusional smoke. My quest is to shine bright which is not possible as a separate little ego, bereft of any source but as a child of God, a vessel; a lamp ready and primed to receive God’s fire. My job is to look at my grievances and let them dissolve away and my motivation is to enable my brothers and sisters to see their way too. It’s not my strength alone I share but the gift of grace I pass on to my brothers and sisters. The Christ Jesus is that light. The source of all that is.
Your light is dearer to me than all the trinkets I may play with to keep me from seeing your light and the adornments I use to hide the light within me. Salvation is my only need. This is it. So simple yet so alludes the ego mind. I do not need to search for my purpose or meaning in this world. I have always known it really.
“We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time.”
Difficult if not impossible to maintain for more than a moment if my focus is on my ego mind. My ego mind justifies my grievances because my body feels threatened. How can I not hold a grievance if I feel threatened, small and vulnerable. Because I am not all knowing, all present and all powerful, guilt and shame are inevitable consequences as I realise my errors. In reality, I truly do not know what I do.
I trust in you, oh Lord of Peace, I am not just a body. My body is merely a communication device to express the glory of God’s love in the world. I am in my Father’s image, therefore I see. I am awake. I cannot be anything other than awake. When I am not awake, I am really, I just can see it. God forgives because it’s His nature, He cannot do otherwise. God is love. God is forgiveness. Above all, God is love. One day there will be no need for forgiveness because God never condemned in the first place. But for now, my path to the peace of God is through forgiveness.
We will all get there eventually, some soon, some when disaster strikes, 🤕 some when we take time out (take up meditation, 🧘🏻♂️ stop believing every thought as if it were a god, ⛔️ take up travelling 🚶🏾♂️ or sports ⚽️ or painting 🎨 or whatever works), some when we get older, 🙀 some on our death beds 🛏 and some when we return to the source of the universe – whatever that might be for you. 🌌
‘Make hay while the sun still shines’ – get present to all your thoughts, feelings, fears, angers, hates, loves, uncomfortable feelings – the whole bloomin’ lot!
Get present to what’s here, now both externally and within. Do it NOW; Literally – not metophorically!
❤️ Being present to it all is really true love and the kindest thing you can do for yourself and everyone else on the planet. ❤️